I'm going to bed after this. . .

I want to just dive into my children's lives. I just want to enjoy them and not be tired when it is time to play. I want to teach them new things, comb their hair, take them to gymnastics, and drum class without focusing on anything but them.

I want to be that mom cheering them on for every small accomplishment. Smiling at all their new discoveries.

I want finances to be the least of my worries. I want to have all the time and energy it takes to love them.

I want true balance.

Thank God this blog is here. Here I am at another crossroads. I don't know if it has ever happened to you but after having children at times your brain just goes to mesh. I've never been a big talker. However, I use to have no problem getting my piont across. I will admit I usually like to write things out before I just get up and speak. However, this past year I have just been the worst at articulating and its driving me crazy. Yes, I do care what others think, that's why there is a need to express myself fully so that one may understand, however this has been a challenge this past year after baby # 3.

Have the children taken my brain? I feel like I just can't get it together. Multi-tasking. Its messing me up. Too much to eat on my plate. Overload.

Here it is 3:30AM and I can't sleep cause I am thinking about how it is that I can show you what I mean, I can sing it, but I can't speak it.

I never feel like going into details about anything because I feel like its useless. Who really cares? Me. No one else.

Anyway, for all those who say "huh?" to this. I don't care. ITS A BLOG.
I can say whatever and it doesn't have to make sense.
This is what I'm talking about. Its ok here but not everywhere.
My interview today was a blog. My toast to my cousins wedding was a blog.
No more blogs unless it is a blog.
Thank you.